There is something in me that forces me into nothingness.
It is like being caught in a wave that sucks me in and pushes me to the ground. All struggle or resistance only adds to the turmoil. I cannot breath and fear turns into panic. I have lost all sense of orientation and direction. I try to break free, but it is holding me back firmly, in a relentless and suffocating grip. I want to scream, for help and rescue, another chance, some way out, but I only face dark nothingness beyond the chaos. And then there is something in me saying quietly – just hold still. Hold still and let go.
I follow that voice.