Recently I found my watch in a box somewhere in the back of a drawer and it occurred to me that I have not seen it in nearly two years.
I am no longer wearing a watch.
I am fascinated with the symbolism of what is happening in our life, even tough it just looks like the most random and ordinary thing.
I remember the day my watch just stopped and I could not get it to work again. I like my watch – it was a gift on the occasion of a promotion that started a career. This timepiece and I became inseparable over more than 20 years.
Many things changed over those years. I moved abroad, I changed jobs, cars, homes and continents. And I still wore my little watch on my left wrist, sometimes falling asleep with my hand under my face, and waking up with imprints on my cheek.
Then I moved to a big city and decided to not bring my car. I always thought getting out of the drivers seat was the first major symbolic act on my path of living a life suspended upside down. After a few years living in the big city, I quit my job and moved back to the place I had started off.
Many changes occurred at that time. Again I changed continent, home, job, friends and the way I used to spend my day. It was a metamorphosis from one life into the next.
And I still wore my little steel watch.
However, on the 23rd of December 2008 it suddenly stopped. It was at the beginning of the Christmas holidays, so the repair shop was closed. The following January was very busy, so I never got around to bringing it to the watchmaker. A few more weeks passed and then I was so used to not wearing a watch any more, that I put it away, thinking “Later…”.
Then, after a few more weeks I happened to listen to Eckhart Tolle and what I realised then changed my life.
From that moment on I had a very different view on time and not wearing a timepiece seemed to be more than appropriate.
So first I got out of the driver’s seat and then time stood still. Don’t you love the symbolism? Wonder what is next….