Everything that is just false. The dance around the golden calf of free market economy, the worship of the sacred cow monetary cycle, the lies of governments, political parties, large companies, the destruction of nature and the abuse of the weak and infirm ?
The willful separation of what is meant to be joined.
What do you do when you see it all and then have fallen to your knees, because you can see now your own contribution to the decadence, decline and destruction of the world. If you see people suffering needlessly and hear them crying for help – and you know how to touch them. What do you do ?
My choice at the time was to withdraw.
But it is not in my nature at all to hide and watch the flowers grow ( its lovely, by the way). I am in silence much of my days now and I have become all but intolerant to lies and deceit. My own lies and deceit mostly. It hurts me physically and I feel this energy guiding me from one experience to the next, to lose yet another layer of conditioning and see even clearer. This silent little voice commands me to sit still and have faith. Wait until you are ready. You will know it.
I live by Truth and not by reason now. I do not “think” but “feel” my decisions. If I go by will and experience, it sends me into contraction. If I go by Truth – I mostly start to cry for no apparent reason. It tells me to sit still. I get angry, I have ideas, I want to do things – and I feel the leash around my neck tighten. I go deeply into myself and listen – and know everything is going to be so alright that I feel – once again – tears well up.
And being in this place, I know this is where I am supposed to be right now.
p.s. This post was inspired by an article about Stéphane Hessel, a 93 years old icon, a concentration camp survivor and Resistance fighter, who wrote a thin pamphlet called “Indignez-Vous!,” (Time for Outrage) in protest of France’s treatment of illegal immigrants, the influence of the media by the rich, the cuts to the social welfare system, education and healthcare and – Israel’s treatment of the Palestinians. The booklet became a global bestseller.