There are many (perceived) changes in the process of getting used to living one’s life comfortably dangling suspended upside down. This is a little metaphor that is inspired by the twelfth card of the Tarot – The Hanged Man.
The Hanged Man is the symbol of being surrendered to what is happening and just let go. Look at his face – despite dangling upside down from a branch, he is actually looking quite serene and peaceful. This is what it feels to finally have let go of the struggling.
But how do you let go of “struggling” ? I does sound so easy, so completely reasonable, so – desirable. And here you have the one thing to be conscious of. You cannot just “want” to let go of struggling. The moment you try – you are putting up the resistance again and contracting even tighter.
So all we can do is – let go. Letting go is a process, as ego formation is a process. The difference is a focal point – or a desire, a want, a fixation. The moment I grasp on to something, I have made it into an object of desire and I will pursue my idea of it.
This is what all spiritual teachers keep repeating: There is nothing to attain, grasp, achieve, get, become – because the moment I have an idea of what it is I want, instead of what is right now, I am locking in and I am no longer free to allow everything to take form just as it comes.
Letting go means to accept everything as it is – and that includes everything and leaves out nothing. Every thing…all my thoughts, emotions, ideas, contractions, judgements, secrets, hidden habits – all of it. Feel it, sense it, go right into it, be it – and let go. It is the process of letting go of anything that is causing the contraction and in order to do that, I have to become aware of it. Look for it, explore it, untangle it, bring the light of awareness to it.
I notice that the process of letting go is becoming spontaneous at some point. It is like learning to ride a bicycle – in the beginning it is a little shaky to keep the balance, but soon you don’t have to think anymore and the body intelligence is taking over fully. The same with letting go. But as far as I am concerned – it takes some experimenting and some practice and furthermore, it seems to get deeper in the sense of reaching the more subconscious levels.
The energy of transformation is fueling this. In that sense, one does not really have to do anything, but as this is also the time of getting used to living in paradoxes ( that really are no paradoxes, just seem that way ), this is also about understanding that two things can be true simultaneously – like doing and not-doing.
The feeling of letting go is a sense of relief, quietness and peacefulness. A lot less energy is needed to keep things under control or to manipulate reality in such a way, that I may be able to bend a situation according to my reality, make it fit to my desire. And that is what the struggle is all about. If there is no desire – no wish that anything in this moment may be different and I can allow it to be exactly like it is – I am in a state of relaxation about it.
Just imagine a beautiful day, sitting on a mountaintop maybe, in perfect stillness and beauty. This is what it feels being at One with the moment. Just being, breathing, enjoying, relaxing. And then a thought is coming in, trying to pull me out of this perfect moment of now…and that is a perfect moment to become aware of this impulse – not resist, but let go.
By becoming aware of the peace in us. That, which is not struggling.