I am everything and yet I am not.

We may look for the nothing in everything. But it was not before I realised I need to go into the nothing to find everything, I have been able to recognise the vibrant fullness of life.

Nothing is as it appears to be. And in that lies the freedom that wants to be lived.

To live it means to find the loyalty which is an immanent devotion to truth. To live it means to rely on inner strength a the guiding principle. And then It takes tremendous courage to face the fear, the challenges and eventually the full truth about being and that what we are. This is the only thing I pray for, the courage to live out what I recognise to be true, because this is what transforms. And again and again, it is the moment of mistake that leads me to a place that otherwise I would have avoided.

The body gets used to it gradually. It is painful to rip open what has been closed tight and shut down for such a long time, it is blinding to bring it out in the open and let it face the light of the day. But to experience that vivacious energy of life flowing, containing all the fullness, all the love and appreciation for everything there is, to see the stunning beauty around me, to experience that openness – it is all I ever want live for.

I am so glad. And grateful. And humbled.